Thursday, June 30, 2011
Insomnia's a cunt
Guess I got some shit weighing on my mind. Can't go to sleep. I've beaten myself off raw, I've tried watching Inception, which usually has me knocked out fifteen minutes in. I saw that dude Trey online so I chatted him up for a bit. We ended up talking till about 3 am but he had to go to bed cause he had to be at work early. Seems like a cool guy. I'm interested in getting to know more. Flirted online with two other guys for a bit but neither really caught my attention. A blow job at the most. Talked to Jaime for a bit. As usual we just ignore our last disagreement and pretend everything is ok till it just is. Really getting tired of that dance. Sometimes I think I've outgrown Jaime. Like fucking and fighting and being friends for the past ten years may have been enough for me. Maybe I learned the lessons he was brought into my life to teach me already and it's time to move on. A season. Not a lifetime. My mind is too groggy to think this deeply about things. I'm gonna try beating off one more time then I'm dosing myself with Nyquil.